I've grown afraid of leaving after all these years. The worst part of leaving is when it is imposed upon you: when people leave and you're not quite sure whether they will come back into your life again. Sometimes, this is mediated through death--in which case you know that you will never see the person again, and you're left alone trying to piece everything together again. In other cases, romances leave you; sometimes it's the moving apart more than the leaving, and sometimes it's your downright selfishness. Whatever it is, you're left alone afterwards, and usually empty until you can find someone or something else you identify with and repeat the cycle of left and leaving once again.